Guess What? It Snowed!

Okay - Okay - Yes, it snowed today. And I'm sure everyone remembers how I feel about the snow. I should have just named this blog "The Snow Day" blog because it seems like that is the only time I write in it - HA! HA!

I did get a warm, fuzzy feeling seeing those big flakes falling all around me but I was driving. I couldn't just stop and spin and laugh in the middle of those snow flakes... and when I got home... it had stopped - Damn. But I think we will have another soon. I'll be ready next time!

Back to reality - and I realize why I get so engrossed in something like snow flakes. My job has been a pressure cooker lately. They have added sales to my Internet tech job. I am not a salesman. I cannot talk someone into something they do not want. So, sure - add that to my job duties. Oh brother.

Speaking of brothers... my boyfriend's brother, J, has really done it this time. He has R so mad at him that he has decided that J will not be here next month. Fine by me. J seems to think that I HAVE to have his rent money to survive. He told R we can't make it if J moves out. I'm not sure where he got this idea but I don't know where he gets any of his ideas. The sonovabitch wiped his shitty ass with a sock and threw it on the floor by the toilet. I found it. (Why it had to be me I will never know) That was it for me. Good-Bye.

So, I'm off to work now. Be back tonight. Let's see if I can write something before next year's first snow! Later...

Hello!

OK- this time it is not my fault- I was without Internet. As far as I can figure my modem died but AT&T didn't tell me anything. In fact, every time I need help from them, it is a nightmare- I am not kidding...It started off with the modem acting up. Then one day I had a red light where it was supposed to be green and other lights were missing. Okay. Call AT&T. Hello India... They set me up with a work order. I wait. And wait. And wait... Extremely pissed now. Call AT&T. Hello America. We trouble shoot. have a lovely time.I already happen to have a new modem from another nightmare I went through with this company.  We are best friends.But something is wrong. She will get this to internal offices or something and they will look at it in 15 minutes and I will get a call and they will tell me just what's happening and how to fix it. I wait. And wait. And wait....AGAIN- and it is Sunday and everything is closed. Now, remember, all this time I've had an open work order- although no one ever did tell me why he didn't make it to the assigned date he was supposed to come- no apology either- So, Monday morning. I call AT&T. There is no mention of a work order and the automated system is trouble shooting like this is the first time I have called. I am so ready to rip some one's damn head off- I really can barely contain myself. Finally I get to an agent- guess where? India. Here we go again- but we register the account and I am back online.

Well, Thank You, India! If you use AT&T- I hope they treat you well. All I know is every time I need their help it always turns into some kind of hell. But I am online and I am happy. Best of all - I am back to blogging!

Here I Go Again...

Hello. Let's just pretend a whole year has not gone by- Jeez- If I really want to take this blog thing seriously I guess I will have to write more often than once a year! HA! HA! I am sorry though...

Well, it was rough at the beginning of the year - out of work and only working part time jobs BUT I finally found the building where my good old job moved to and I am happy - even though they piss me off regularly. I guess that's why it is called a job. At least I'm able to make enough money to feed myself and pay my rent- Oh, and get my meds. Thank the Gods for that.

And so, if I'm so flippin' happy, why aren't I writing more? It is true that adversary makes great writers but all I ever wanted was to feel good enough to be able to write... well, I'm just going to have to get busy because I am not as young as I used to be. And I am literally running out of time.

My plan was to practice with the personal stuff and eventually begin writing articles and see if I couldn't get a second income rolling in - HA! - as you can tell it has been delayed. Now, I haven't been completely oblivious to the time going by. I have done quite a bit of reading on blogging and journals and monetizing a blog, or even starting a website. I'm not ready for the website - but soon. For now I need to get back to writing every day again.

You see, the company I work for is a brand new company- and I saw what happened to the last one- so I figure I've got about 3 years and then I'll probably have to look for another job. I don't want to go through that again- really- I am too old for that. Especially since I know it's going to happen. If I don't get myself set up nice and pretty... then it's my own damn fault.

So, that's about it for now and I swear I will be back before we change calendars again! Then maybe we can get down to business and I can figure out how to begin my own little business.

Snow Storm!

It started yesterday. I had fallen asleep for a while after I got home from work. I just woke up and...It is beautiful. I'm not sure how many inches we've gotten but it is a Winter Wonderland. I thought about getting dressed and stepping outside to get the full affect but I'm not ready for all that yet. But it is wonderful.

There was a warning and it looks like people followed instructions because the snow is pristine. And it is early in the morning. I look outside and there are no tracks anywhere - even my little scruffy dog hasn't gone out yet. Even on the road there hasn't been much traffic and when it's like this I love the snow the most.

Growing up in the snow belt I'd say there is probably 6-8 inches. The forecast says there could be another 6 inches by noon. Fantastic! I don't know if I'll be able to (between the fibromyalgia and arthritis) but I'm going to try to get dressed and take my little dog out - to just get out in it - It would be great!

Well, I'm going to get  a cup of coffee and work on my plan. But even if I don't get all the way out, I'm going to enjoy my lovely Winter Wonderland.

All the Empty Homes

I was sitting here deciding what I could write about and a big excavating shovel began to tear a house down across the street - It struck me as very sad - I almost started to cry. I've been here over 2 years and have even tried to find the owner of that house to see if I could afford it... I can forget that now.

I go around this city and never in my life seen so many empty houses- houses for sale and houses for rent. I keep trying to bring it to my friends' attentions that this is not normal. And that makes me sad, too. It shows how much trouble this city is in and I know it's the same everywhere according to the news. What can we do? Tear them all down? Very sad.

I'm going to take a little break. I'll probably write more later...

First Snow

It snowed the other day. I went out on my porch and held my hand out and saw a few shiny, little flakes land. For that moment- I was happy. Just like a little kid- happy. Watching the tiny crystals melting- happy.

That feeling of happiness stayed with me half the day. I went to work and said "Hello." and "Good morning!" to everyone I saw. And by the time I left work, it was gone.

In my last post, I said we were told there was going to be a big lay off at work... well, I survived that. But now, we had another meeting and we were told the company will close it's doors on December 31, 2009.

Here I go again. All those things that well up and make you believe that you will not survive. You are going down. How could they do this to you? They will just leave you to die.

As well as I know the sun rises and sets, I know I'm not going to die... from this anyway. It just irks me to no end. I just put my year in and I was going to take a real vacation- I've never had one. Damn! I was going to apply for the next step up and get a $1.00 raise. Damn! I was going to be the best little worker in Akron, Ohio. Damn!

Okay, I do have plan and I have a month and a half to get it going. And, one day, as I was leaving, I like to say something decent to the security officer and I noticed a large jar on the front desk full of candy.

I wanted a piece of candy- all of a sudden. But as I reached for the jar, the security officer handed me a small piece of paper and explained that we were to guess the amount of candy in the jar and we would win the whole thing. (Whoopee!) I made a dry comment, as I often do, and this security officer (Whom I'd never seen before) told me about where she works and all the benefits and how easy the job is. Then, she gives me her newsletter because it had all the phone numbers on it and other information I could use. I took all the information. I nodded my head and thanked her a couple of times. As I went out the door and into the parking lot- I felt good- I was happy.

I haven't seen that security guard since. Maybe she is an angel and she set up shop at my company so that I could run into her and she could give me this great tip. Maybe. You know, it is a nice thought.

So, am I going to put an application in for this security job? You betcha. And Ill keep you posted. Have a good day, now. Later...

It's Been Awhile...

When I started this blog- I was going to write every single day- and be able to get all the junk in my head out and into words- and be a happy, healthy person... Well, that was quite a while ago but I'm back.

Frankly- I don't feel like writing about crap in my head- I wish I could say something uplifting and motivational but I don't think that's going to happen this morning either. Well, Here goes...


about a month and a half ago they pulled us all together at work and told us we would have a big lay off Sept. 1- gave each of us a letter with each of our names on it- Pretty messed up. Then 2 weeks ago I get an email saying they need 400 people and we have 401. Hmmm. And yet, every day when I go downstairs to go to break, there are people sitting in the lobby, some are taking their typing tests, clearly applying for work. Just once I'd like to start yelling, "What are you doing here? Don't you know they will be laying off workers?"

Now, I would never do that- but I don't realize why they are still hiring. It's just crap.

Sorry, but that's what has been on my mind. I will write more later and it should be more entertaining- bye for now.