My Apologies

Hello! I really am sorry- I never intended t be gone so long. But crap occurs. Also, I had been busy - working full time and I was introduced to nail art - I am hooked! I have quite a portfolio going and that, too, has kept me busy. Except I won't be so busy now - I just lost my job. It really amazes me that I have been there for 3 years now and they just decided my numbers were not good enough. Really it's ok because I called this about a year and a half ago. I'm surprised I lasted this long. And the whole thing is over $2. Amazing. I'm sure I will get into the whole story someday soon and, too, I'm kinda happy. I really needed a break. I am totally burned out on customer care right now.

So, I am back. And, once again, I sit at my computer and cannot believe there isn't a way to make money online. That's my next 'pie in the sky'. I just hope I find it. I love to do research and I am very organized. I do not have a home phone so I will not be getting back into CS right now. And, of course, I do love to write so if anyone has a lead please, drop me a link in the comments. It would be well appreciated.

I do feel good about being able to get back to my blogs. Besides this one I also have Indigo Rainbow 101 and My Fight with Fibromyalgia - both of those on Blogger, too.

Indigo Rainbow 101 is about the paranormal and mysteries of the universe and right here on Earth. And My Fight with Fibromyalgia is self explanatory. I have been having trouble with that for many years now and I am still walking but the days do get very long. Another reason why I was ready for a break from the 9 to 5.

Here I Go Again...

Hello. Let's just pretend a whole year has not gone by- Jeez- If I really want to take this blog thing seriously I guess I will have to write more often than once a year! HA! HA! I am sorry though...

Well, it was rough at the beginning of the year - out of work and only working part time jobs BUT I finally found the building where my good old job moved to and I am happy - even though they piss me off regularly. I guess that's why it is called a job. At least I'm able to make enough money to feed myself and pay my rent- Oh, and get my meds. Thank the Gods for that.

And so, if I'm so flippin' happy, why aren't I writing more? It is true that adversary makes great writers but all I ever wanted was to feel good enough to be able to write... well, I'm just going to have to get busy because I am not as young as I used to be. And I am literally running out of time.

My plan was to practice with the personal stuff and eventually begin writing articles and see if I couldn't get a second income rolling in - HA! - as you can tell it has been delayed. Now, I haven't been completely oblivious to the time going by. I have done quite a bit of reading on blogging and journals and monetizing a blog, or even starting a website. I'm not ready for the website - but soon. For now I need to get back to writing every day again.

You see, the company I work for is a brand new company- and I saw what happened to the last one- so I figure I've got about 3 years and then I'll probably have to look for another job. I don't want to go through that again- really- I am too old for that. Especially since I know it's going to happen. If I don't get myself set up nice and pretty... then it's my own damn fault.

So, that's about it for now and I swear I will be back before we change calendars again! Then maybe we can get down to business and I can figure out how to begin my own little business.

First Snow

It snowed the other day. I went out on my porch and held my hand out and saw a few shiny, little flakes land. For that moment- I was happy. Just like a little kid- happy. Watching the tiny crystals melting- happy.

That feeling of happiness stayed with me half the day. I went to work and said "Hello." and "Good morning!" to everyone I saw. And by the time I left work, it was gone.

In my last post, I said we were told there was going to be a big lay off at work... well, I survived that. But now, we had another meeting and we were told the company will close it's doors on December 31, 2009.

Here I go again. All those things that well up and make you believe that you will not survive. You are going down. How could they do this to you? They will just leave you to die.

As well as I know the sun rises and sets, I know I'm not going to die... from this anyway. It just irks me to no end. I just put my year in and I was going to take a real vacation- I've never had one. Damn! I was going to apply for the next step up and get a $1.00 raise. Damn! I was going to be the best little worker in Akron, Ohio. Damn!

Okay, I do have plan and I have a month and a half to get it going. And, one day, as I was leaving, I like to say something decent to the security officer and I noticed a large jar on the front desk full of candy.

I wanted a piece of candy- all of a sudden. But as I reached for the jar, the security officer handed me a small piece of paper and explained that we were to guess the amount of candy in the jar and we would win the whole thing. (Whoopee!) I made a dry comment, as I often do, and this security officer (Whom I'd never seen before) told me about where she works and all the benefits and how easy the job is. Then, she gives me her newsletter because it had all the phone numbers on it and other information I could use. I took all the information. I nodded my head and thanked her a couple of times. As I went out the door and into the parking lot- I felt good- I was happy.

I haven't seen that security guard since. Maybe she is an angel and she set up shop at my company so that I could run into her and she could give me this great tip. Maybe. You know, it is a nice thought.

So, am I going to put an application in for this security job? You betcha. And Ill keep you posted. Have a good day, now. Later...